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Post by OldSean on Mar 20, 2009 14:26:15 GMT -5
He twisted and turned trying to fell a sleep but he couldn't, nightmares hunted him so he put on himself something to get warm and just set there thinking of stuff. Sean had a sad look on his face, he just couldn't sleep stuff stopped him from sleeping as worried him but he wasn't sure why so. Sean signed then lied back down trying to sleep but he only ended up tossing and turning till eventually he fell a sleep but not for long, eventually he end up screaming.
And after then he jumped a little to a sitting position and breathed deeply slightly sweating as well as he looked around . He couldn't wait till they got to their destination but Sean wished in would be soon though. He was a loyal friend and a good sailor as well as he did what he was told but there were times when he had nightmares and showed signs of weakness but mostly when he was by himself though, rather then around others.
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Post by Sinbad on Mar 21, 2009 4:29:35 GMT -5
((taking place a few hours after Rongar took over Sinbad´s shift // Rongar: if you like, we can of course rp on, the thread needn´t end because this one starts since I made sure the time lines of the two threads would not collide))
It was these very early hours of the morning when the chill of the night was about to retreat and the sun was just about to rise, but not quite yet. They had made good speed during the night, the captain thought and he had not found a minute of sleep. It didn´t bother him much but he had had his share of that by now.
When he was pacing the ship once more, he heard someone yell from the cabins, identifying the voice as that of one of his sailors - Sean.
Stopping by the cabin, he listened for a moment, wondering what was going on, before he knocked on the door, halting in his step. "Are you all right, man?" he asked, raising his voice slightly.
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Post by OldSean on Mar 21, 2009 4:47:00 GMT -5
As he heard a knock on his cabin and his captains voice he signed breathing deeply:"I am fine, Captain" he said lying of course but he couldn't admit the truth so, it was rather to hard for him because he didn't like to speak about his past and if he had to admit the truth then it would hurt him more just as it hurt him lying to his captain. "I just had a nightmare that is all" he added. Yet he hoped that his captain didn't notice that he was lying because if his captain would know he was lying then mostly likely he would be worried and Sean didn't need anyone worrying about him or feeling sorry for him. He hated that, he wanted to show himself as a tough guy that wasn't weak at all even so he was weak too not only strong.
"Come on in, Captain" he said a while later as he cleaned his face from the sweat that poured over him. He looked around as he waited for his captain to come in. Sean's hair was messy but he did all he could to fix it. He wasn't sure if it was day or night but he didn't mind having some company, it most likely would distract him from the nightmare he had. Sean missed Dim Dim and Maeve As well as he missed the woman he was in love with and was about to marry, who died to soon. He wasn't in the mood to talk about his love and the bad things he went threw, not with his captain and not with anyone else. It hurt Sean to much to speak of that, it Brock his heart.
One of the reasons he joined Sinbad was to get rid of his past and to concentrate on the future then anything else. Other then so he would keep sailing the 7 seas. As well as helping Sinbad with saving the princess whom they already saved 2 years ago. Sean liked his captain as a friend and a brother but wasn't ready to open up to him so, even if he cared for him and admired him as well as trusted him. It was just he never spoke to anyone about what he went threw, it was his habit to keep it inside and let share it. Maybe in the future he will but not now so.
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Post by Sinbad on Mar 22, 2009 7:24:08 GMT -5
There was some rummaging around and Sinbad waited, crooking half a smile. Sean wasn´t one to talk about his troubles much and he wouldn´t press him since he himself knew how annoying that could be. He could tell the other man was lying - another similarity, he was too good a liar when it was about how he was feeling to not notice that Sean was not telling the truth.
He opened the door a crack and peeked inside. "You look like you could use a sniff of fresh air, Sean." he said, nodding his head towards the deck.
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Post by OldSean on Mar 22, 2009 7:50:15 GMT -5
He looked at Sinbad as he opened the door, Sean listened to Sinbad and nodded:"I guess you am right. However you seem like you need some rest. Have we got there yet? and how long do we have to get there? if we are not there already" he said to Sinbad his captain. He admired Sinbad for not pushing him as well as for being such a great captain and a friend, Not to to mention he also admired him for the fact that he was a caring person. Sean did felt bad for Sinbad about Maeve being gone and all. "Sinbad, you know she misses you too, don't ya? you are not alone" he said to him a while later. Sean then got out of the bed, then looked around then back at Sinbad. He looked a side then back at Sinbad waiting for Sinbad to say or do something.
Sean then fixed his hair a little and then he put on a bandana as he then walked over and open the door To his cabin making sure not to knock his captain in side, in the process so. Since it would be back if he actually did knock him in.
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Post by Sinbad on Mar 22, 2009 7:54:43 GMT -5
Of course Sinbad pointedly ignored the mention of Maeve. He was willing to let things go through his head and ponder about them but he was not yet at a point where he was ready to talk about her that openly. Even though Bryn might disagree with that opinion, he was still certain that it was easier that way. He had never been a person to openly admit feelings and that wasn´t likely to change right now.
He made a small step aside to let the sailor exit his cabin. "We´re not there yet." he said. "but it´s not long now. I think we will arrive in Basra around noon."
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Post by OldSean on Mar 22, 2009 9:04:05 GMT -5
"Ok that is good and can't wait till we get there, and Sinbad? you are a great captain but just remember we all are there for you when you need us" he said to him. In some ways Sinbad reminded him of himself but not in a bad wau though, yet he did care a great deal about him. Sean looked around then back at him. He then put his hand on Sinbad's shoulder. "You are a great captain and friend, don't change. Besides mybe by miracle all your dreams will come true, there is still home, Sinbad so don't you worry, ok?" he said to him, even so he wasn't open about his past and all, he still cared about Sinbad, they both wanted to be sailors and both were sailors even if Sinbad was his captain. He would do anything for his friend and captain Sinbad and hoped that his captain felt the same, he was glad they met and wasn't regretting at all that he joined his crew. Sean was also graful to Sinbad for saving him the times he did, also he also Saved Sinbad more then once but it still didn't change the fact that he was gratful though. He wished that he could do something to bring back Maeve even though you knew that he couldn't.
Maeve was a great person and he admired her for that and for being friendly and there when anyone needed her help, he wished that she would be back even so he knew that most likely she wouldn't. For a while he didn't mentioned to Sinbad about Maeve till now. Sean also noticed that Sinbad, his captain skipped the part about Maeve, yet he understood his reasons or so he thought that he did anyways. He hoped that one day they would be able to tell each other things and trust each other, even so it won't be easy at all. Sean looked to the ground then back at Sinbad, he was talking about other things then his dream since he didn't want to talk about it.
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Post by Sinbad on Mar 22, 2009 11:31:02 GMT -5
Sinbad gave a slight chuckle, before he patted the other man on the shoulder lightly, letting him step out of his cabin. "Wow did I do to deserve being praised so much tonight?" he asked, mildly amused by his crew being so ... mothering around him of late. They really needed to reach Basra, he thought, so they could have a few good ales or whatever and finally escape the confines of the ship where everyone seemed to have taken up the hobby of pondering about the captain´s emotional well being. Sinbad was by now at a point where he would even have welcomed a little bar brawl, at least that would have been a nice change to the whole scene.
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Post by OldSean on Mar 22, 2009 14:11:08 GMT -5
Sean chuckled with Sinbad then shock his head. He smiled at what Sinbad did as he walked out. "You just been yourself as well you are that way, even so there are bad things about you too but we all got that but you are a good guy though. Not to mention you are important to us all" he said to him. Sean looked around then back at his captain. He hoped that they would get to Besra soon, however he would still worry about his captain.
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Post by Sinbad on Mar 23, 2009 3:31:00 GMT -5
"Well of course I am." Sinbad said in faked brazenness when he stepped back on deck. "Without me you´d have to swim."
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Post by OldSean on Mar 25, 2009 5:12:23 GMT -5
"See? you agree" he said to him then burst out laughing at what his captain said. "Yeah, yeah you are funny man. You are a great fun so" he said following him. He looked around then back at him. He waited for his reply or at least for him to do something if not a reply.
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Post by Sinbad on Mar 26, 2009 6:45:29 GMT -5
"If you say so." Sinbad gave a little shrug, then stepped out onto the deck. The night air was starting to bear a trace of morning.
He turned to give the other man a glance. He wouldn´t adress the matter of the other one´s nightmares because even though he felt responsible as captain, he knew when someone preferred to keep things for himself and this was the case with Sean. "So," he said instead, turning the conversation towards a lighter matter. "do you have any plans for Basra already?"
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Post by OldSean on Mar 29, 2009 19:07:36 GMT -5
"I know so" he said to him. Sean followed his captain to the Deck. He notices that the night was going away and being replaced by day which didn't surprise him at all. He looked at his captain noticing him glance at him, so he just gave him a small smile. Sean was glad that his captain, Sinbad didn't made him tell him about his nightmares and respected him. "So?!" he said to him back. "Well not yet, i know a person whom i haven't seen in years but i doubt this person would want to see me anyways" he said to him. The truth was he found out threw a mutual friend that the girl he liked brother lived in Basera, but he couldn't face him. He still blamed himself for her death even if her brother didn't but he believed that her brother also blamed him.
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Post by Sinbad on Mar 31, 2009 7:32:54 GMT -5
Propping up his hands on the reiling, Sinbad closed his eyes for a moment, letting the sea breeze caress his face while he listened to what the other man said. The winds seemed soothing, even though they could not veil nor hide his still troubled emotions. However, it was good to see that some things had not changed, would not change. Like the sea.
Opening his eyes again he noticed that the first traces of daylight started to show in the far east. "Well who knows." he said, turning his head to look at Sean and noticing that there was something in the sailor´s voice that was hard to place. "that´s always the better option. Risking for someone to not want to see you is better than not having the chance to." His words sounded light and consorting at the same time, hiding well the short pain they caused.
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Post by OldSean on Apr 4, 2009 5:04:41 GMT -5
Sean stood by Sinbad as he also closed his eyes feeling the wind it was so nice, that was the best or so he thought. He was glad the sea won't change since it would be bad if it did. Even so he talked to Sinbad he still stood with eyes close letting the wind ruffle his hair and caress his cheek. It was a nice feeling of so he thought anyways. It was good to know that stuff won't change and not just sea wise.
He opened his eyes and saw exactly what Sinbad did. He took a deep breath and watched the first sighs of day light. Sean hoped that they would get to shore soon. "Yeah who knows" he said looking at Sinbad as he could tell tht he was looking at him. Sean wasn't sure what to say next or anything like that, at least not yet. "What do you mean? risking? so you think i should give it a try? is that what you are saying? what if the person hates me? what should i do then? i think he blames me for something that happens two years before we met or a bit longer but the point is he maybe sees that as my fault" he said . It was hard to tell the pain he felt by his voice even though he tried to hide it.
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